G-Eazy mourns the death of his mother, Suzanne Olmsted.
The 32-year-old rapper, whose real name is Gerald Earl Gillum, took to Instagram on Wednesday to pay tribute to “my queen, my hero, my everything… my mother”.
“The shock still leaves me unable to accept the feeling that I will never be able to hug you in person again,” he captioned a series of photos of his mother. “The tears won’t stop. My eyes hurt, my face hurts, my body hurts, everywhere hurts.”
Although he did not disclose his mother’s cause of death, the rapper wrote that he knows his mother is no longer in pain.
“There is no safe place to hide and there is no way to lie, sit or stand that doesn’t hurt,” he wrote. ‘The pain is enormous. But I know you’re out of yours and that gives me peace. I love you so much.’
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In the Instagram carousel, G-Eazy shared black and white photos of Olmsted, as well as images of the rapper from earlier in his life. In the last slide, G-Eazy added audio from an emotional voicemail from his mother, telling him how proud she is of him: “It’s just the beginning, Gerald…and I’m just so proud…I’ll talk to you soon…Okay honey, I love you.”
The rapper described Olmsted as “the definition of superhuman” and someone who “will always be my biggest inspiration”. He also reflected on his mother’s role in seeking treatment for his alcohol and drug addiction.
“As much as I was concerned about you and your physical health, I didn’t realize how concerned you were for me until you sent me the hardest letter I’ve ever had to read,” he wrote. “It was my decision to go to treatment for alcohol and drugs, but your letter finally convinced me.”
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He continued: “They say the opposite of addiction is connection, and I had never felt so connected to you as I have in the past few months. Coming home here was not easy, and nothing will ever move forward… but as you would always say: ‘step by step and don’t look at the top’. “
G-Eazy closed his post, noting that his mother loved him and his brother James Gillum “more than life itself” and that they loved her just as much.
“Our hearts are broken, but they are full of love and gratitude for the life you have given us,” he wrote. “Always with us… we love you mama.”
G-Eazy has been candid about his close relationship with his mother before, revealing in a 2015 interview with Inside The Story that they had a bond over smoking marijuana.
“I remember on my 18th birthday she liked to smoke joints, I liked to smoke blunts, so I let her smoke a blunt with me,” he said. “We sat down, got high together for the first time. It was a bit anticlimactic. It was a bit awkward, you know what I mean, being high with your mom. Now it’s all chill. Every time I go home “I just smoked my ass under the table. Then we have our conversations and catch up.”
In 2017, Olmsted told the San Francisco Chronicle that she nurtured G-Easy’s passion for music from an early age.
“I think all children should be exposed to music,” she said. “I found him a really good piano teacher when he was in first grade. In fifth grade he wanted to learn composition. I prioritized that kind of thing on a budget. When hip-hop and rap entered his world at age 11 or 12 I came up with a plan that I wouldn’t limit what he could listen to. I told him, ‘You can buy any CD you want, but at 9 o’clock we’ll switch to classical music.’ “
She also talked about leaving G-Eazy’s father, Edward Gillum, when the rapper was “very young.”
“I don’t say this a lot in interviews, but he had a very destructive father relationship,” she said. “Gerald is depressed. His ability to name his depression was amazing. I hope this (album, 2017’s ‘The Beautiful & Damned’) is his deepest dive into that. You have to do that to get out. As his mother I can also hearing where the truth is and where the bragging is. That’s why I go to the shows. To hug him and tell him everything will be okay.”
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